February 2011
85 posts
They say to smile even though your heart is aching, but that smile isn’t genuine.
January 2011
62 posts
“By starlight I kiss you. And promise to be your one and only. I’ll make...”
– Smashing Pumpkins. “By Starlight.” My current favorite song.
Well
karlajocelyn:
I’m beautiful :)
Two broken hearts can’t make one whole. Two broken hearts, broken from their past encounters, from their past lives cannot make a whole heart. Broken hearts cannot interwind and expect them to somehow fit within the cracks of their disintegrated emotions. Two broken hearts meet and believe that they’ve connected; believe that they somehow met the person that will patch things up and...
I'm glad I'm going back to Church.
Do I miss you? Or the concept of having you...
“Hide my soul? Nah homie, not even. Ima zone out till I lose feeling. Remember...”
– Kid Cudi
God, I'm yearning for more. I just can't get...
We're all struggling.
“We’re just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,...”
– Pink Floyd
I think today I'm 85% sure I want to become a...
One day only, but it lasts an eternity
To linger in sadness means you- Questioning and dwelling on what could have been but it’s a concept that can’t be obtained in one’s hands because it’s make believe. Recapturing the images that were once present but they have become a fading memory of the no longer here. Now, what’s before you is the today, but this too will become a yesterday. The shadow of lies and...
Gandhi
“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”
“God sometimes does try to the uttermost those whom he wishes to bless.”
“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”
karlajocelyn asked: imy <3
Take a breath. That took the wind out of me, but I knew it was coming. I tried and at the end of the day, it’s what counts to me. Now, really it’s time to let go..
I went to see “no strings attached” today and I loved it! Ha.
nosamore asked: Milly, you are one gorgeous strong super womyn! <3 always staying strong, i know.
<3karlie.
<3karlie.
nonelikejesus asked: Hey love, just wanted to let you know I'm still praying for you<3 Hope all is well! GB
Let me sum it up in two words: wasted feelings.
“Damn, nice bikes. Damn, no hands?! Damn, I hope you fall, but nice bikes!”
– Random Guy on the street.
Today was a good day. My sister and her husband picked me up and we went to Starbucks. My sister gave me a book titled “Life Safari” and right off the bat I was intrigued by it. We were sitting at Starbucks and she started crying because the book has an important message behind it and she said that it reminded her of our Grandma. She shared a story with me about Grandma.. After they...
“The secret is here in the present. If you pay attention to the present, you can...”
– Paulo Coehlo
staytruee:
Everyday I smile & act like nothings wrong…Its called putting everything aside & being strong.
staytruee:
Why do I believe you? Why do I believe in you? Why do you give me a reason to believe..to believe that there’s no need for reasons and yet it’s even better to not have questioned. So in not questioning, I have no curiosities, complications, and conflicts..insecurities. I should be worried..aha. Why do I believe you/in you when you probably shouldn’t even be believing in me because I...
“We’ll crucify the insincere tonight
We’ll make things right,...”
– Smashing Pumpkins. Tonight, Tonight.
Fixie Sunday
My fixie seems to help me forget.. at least for a little while. Today, we rolled deep. This ride I got tired. The guys were riding really fast and one named Erly (Early) kept calling my friend and I, “rookies.” It was a good ride. There was a cute guy too, but I didn’t get his name :( When we were riding home, there was a filming crew. We asked the police officer if we could go...
Everything is going to be okay.
I’m repeating that every second in my head.
"I'm not going to forget you.." but I'm already...
Let's go back
My mind seems to unravel the notions I feel inside. My eyes were covered with the imagery that the spoken words that flowed through his mouth. So patient, so quiet I stayed. I allowed his words to settle in my ears and process in my head. I capture his intimate memories and his childhood joys. This made him happy and warmed my heart as well. I’m sitting here in disbelief, in this darkness,...
No Good Mornings or Good Nights
Everything came down to nothing. As I lay and think, I question if I’ll ever find someone I’ll connect with as I connected with him. My best friend tried to talk me and make me feel better, but nothing seems to help. I feel empty right now and this too shall subside, but for now my thoughts are exhausted by him.
"Somewhere only we know"
“I felt really comfortable and didn’t have to think too much about what I was saying. It was just coming out and I knew you weren’t judging. Just listening. I thought you looked really pretty and I felt pretty damn lucky.”
We all have our personal battles. We have suffered. Sometimes, I sit down in front of my steps staring at the blue sky, amazed that in one day so much...
"Thoughts get crowded"
I have so much on my mind right now. I woke up today and wasn’t happy. Today would have been my Grandma’s birthday. First birthday without her. My thoughts are running and skipping because one thought can’t sit still so another one jumps in. I feel like I found someone I connected with yet it feels as though it’s slipping out of my hands. I never felt this way so I...
